Song of a Broken Heart

It breaks you HEART when people you know become people you knew;

When you can walk right past someone as if they were never a HUGE part of your life...

Your heart breaks and your head aches,

And you feel like an ass for wanting them to feel the same way you do...

It sucks to know that person is going to be fine without you,

But you know you will never be the same without them...

You used to be able to talk for hours on the phone,

And now you can't even look at each other in the damn eye...

It completely breaks your heart to know good things change

even though you don't want them to...

What do you do when you already did everything,

When you were so damn close to perfection, but it still wasn't enough...

How are you supposed to react when he or she acts like nothing ever happened,

When he or she treats you like if you were friends...

What do you do when you don't wanna be friends

Because it reminds you of what you used to be, more...

Why do you become the asshole for wanting him/her to feel what you feel,

To feel just as pathetic, anxious, and confused as you do...

It hurts to know you wait around all day for a text or call or even an e-mail,

HOPING that they regret ending it and beg for another chance...

And it kills you to know that if they did want to comeback,

No matter how pathetic or how stupid you feel you will take them back in a heartbeat...

And the worst feeling of all is not knowing what you did to make them leave...

You spend all day staring at the ceiling replaying every moment of your time together,

Trying to catch whatever it was you "did" even when you know it's not your fault...

And when you do this three or four times and you get to the point where you can't think anymore,

You pick up the phone to call him/her but know that you'll just look pathetic so you don't call...

Instead you lay back down, bury your face in your pillow,

And SCREAM your heart OUT!!!

Tears start to run down your face,

You think of who to call to make you feel better,

But you know the only person who can make you laugh is him/her,

So you cry, you cry so hard until it hurts, until you can't breath until you can't see until you can't think...

And after all this you somehow still find the strength to throw on that fake smile,

Stand in front of everyone and be able to say, "I'm Okay"...

And no one even takes a second look, cuz no one notices

And you think you have fooled everyone...

But in your heart you know the truth,

That you lost someone very special...

But now that person is just a hope, a dream, a memory.

Cuz know he/she is gone;

And there was nothing, absolutely nothing you could have done to stop it.

This is the lost serenade of a weeping soul...

The memory of someone special...

The Sorrow of our conflicted minds...

This is the song of a broken heart...

By  luckye1216 :
Youtube link : http://www.youtube.com/user/luckye1216
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why am i so mad

why am i so mad,
why does it still hurt so bad,
how can i be so angry and hurt at the same time,
how come i cant have your heart but you still have mine,
when will the pain stop when will i no longer care,
when am i gonna wake up and realize youll never again be there,
when will i stop hurting myself thinking about you,
dreaming these dreams that will never come true,
i guess your wondering what im talking about right,
this rambling and ranting over some stupid guy,
see there was a time when i was getting married,
and this weight on my shoulders he once carried,
everything was great, then three days before our wedding,
i found out i was pregnant and he said he wasnt ready,
he said to get an abortion or he would call the wedding off,
so i lifted my head and thought "hell thats your loss"
that was the last time i saw him to this very day,
he threatened my baby and i moved away,
now im engaged to be married again,
ironically the guy used to be his best friend,
its been three years, now my daughter is two,
you stilldont acknowledge her even though shes the spitting image of you,
i try to carry on and just forget you were ever in my life,
let you just carry on and be happy with your new wife,
pretend that i dont care but i do,
why the hell cant i just forget about you,
you cant hurt me if i dont let you get the chance,
you said no one would ever love me, they 'd just want in my pants,
why am i so angry it just gives you some ground,
your still hurting me inside and your not even around,
how can i be so stupid, to even think of you,
why do i still wonder what you do,
i feel so dumb i check your myspace page all the time,
and hope you read the stuff about my daughter on mine,
but i bet you dont even take the time of day,
i bet you probably dont care anyway
you know what hurts the most is today i looked at your page,
and saw that you and your new wife have a new baby on the way,
i wonder if you'll run from her the way you did with me,
run like some coward, like we have the prego disease,
i want to let go of this anger let go of this rage,
i wish you'd just delete your stupid myspace page,
congratulations dad better get on some running shoes,
make a fast getaway, cause thats what deadbeat dads do,
leave her pregnant and lonely the way you did me,
a single mom in college with two jobs and a new baby,
no child support because i didnt need your money,
my days were dark and cloudy and yours were nice and sunny,
you missed so much with her, and so i pity you,
and all along i thought you were my dream come true,
til the day i met my daughter and you werent there with me,
i thought about how sad and pitiful your life must be,
she's never seen your face and i pray she never will,
i have so many thoughts no words can express what i feel,
so go about your day and dont let us cross your mind,
cause when you get tired of running, we wont be at the finish line.

Will you listen?

if I told you I loved you
would you stand and stare?
would you take me into your warm arms
and whisper that you cared?
darlin' you're the light in the winter skies
my hope in these dark days as summer dies
you were the one who taught me to dance through life
who told me to put away the knife and listen
to our soul's soaring melodies
we're broken but we have each other
will you listen please
if I told you I loved you
would you see me with those oceanic eyes?
see the real me and look past my disguise?
I wish I could dance with you the whole night through
hurt you to see you cry the tears kept so long inside
and finally know the truth
play my song again and I'll kiss you in the rain
taste your tears and wash away the pain
if I told you I loved you
would you let me hold you as we fall asleep?
if you want it boy, my heart's yours to keep.

Carpe Diem

Suddenly the sky is falling
Everything's crashing down
There's no strength left in me to fight
I let the peaces fall to the ground

I've given up on the world
Why waste the effort?
All of it's meaningless
None of it's real

I can't cope
And I don't want to
Not like this
Not without you

You Really Suck

No words to say no thoughts to think
Just tears to cry and the feeling of letting my heart sink
Thanks for turning my heart of gold
Into an empty hole, blank, and cold
I really hate you, I don't know what to say
I just don't know if I can go through like this every day
Faking a smile and a feeling of cheer
When really I don't know why I'm even here
You keep bringing me up to crush me down
While turning my smile into a frown
I think I fell in love with you just by your luck
Because truthfully, you really suck

makes me wonder

I guess it’s you that I got used to
Now you’re not here and everything I do reminds me of you
I believed in you, I’ve hoped and I’ve cried for you
Now it’s just you without me and me without you
If only you were honest
If only ……then you would see
What I am about and what we could have been
But I guess it’s over now, when it even haven’t started yet
It makes me wonder what we were and what we could have been.

Final Thoughts

I lost.

It wasn't a game. There were no teams. This was personal. It was. Then he came back and slid his hands into your mind. You spit up life and lessons. Both your eyes bore holes into his ghost as you silently kissed my hand. Something in the way you leaned said your heart was breaking free. I couldn't hold on. I'm sorry.

Some say to win you have to lose. I believe it. I've lived it.

Your fingers once ripped their way into mine. I got scared. I'm not scared to admit it, but, God, was I scared to feel it. My knees trembled in the wake of what I knew was to come. I should have listened to the voice in my head. Keep her safe, keep her warm, keep her friend. I was not as strong as I appeared. I was nothing. I was scared.

Find me.

Those sheets we lay beneath lay stained when our bodies rose. Every night I lay there in my grave. The smell of dignity rose sweet from the places where it lay, forgotten. The only thing that kept it there was regret. Your eyes grew foggy at the sight of me and I grew weary of your knives. I felt the daggers of your tongue as they slid violently inside.

I think it's best we don't talk. There's nothing left to be said.

Broken

I have so much to say
But nothing can come out
I have to hide who I am
Hide what I want to scream out loud

I hate myself
Who I am inside
But I fake a smile
To my friends I have to hide

I hold on another day
Holding on for love
Someone please rescue me
I need that girl that I’ve been dreaming of

You hurt me so much
It’s time to move on
But I can’t help but to think
That we still belong

Every part of me is dying
Why can’t you see
This bleeding soul before you
This hurt guy is me

These secrets of me
Lies that are buried deep
Cut myself just to bleed
You’re haunting my every dream

I wish someone
Would come into my life
Save me from hell
And stay by my side

I'm Always Here

I walk quietly behind you
Led by a single candle light
As your path becomes darker
My candle will become bright

Your road ahead may be glorious
With no reason to turn around
But come the first sign of rain
I will always be easily found

Sometimes the road may narrow
With hills impossible to climb
My hands will be there for you
With needed force from behind

There are obstacles that lay ahead
May cause you to stumble and fall
I'll always be there to lift you up
And hold you until you stand tall

Not chosen to walk beside you
I will gladly assume my place
For I will always love you
With these tears on my face

My Pain

I saw a pair walking around
I drowned myself, it’s easy now
But a part of me is on the ground
If there’s a way, please tell me how

The door is closed and I’m restrained
I’m pale inside, you made me faint
The soul is cursed and so am I
The eyes were wet but now are dry

I know this floor
I know this place
It’s like a war
That I can’t face

I feared that friction
I feared that moment
It’s just a second
It’s just a motion

I broke my wing
I broke my act
You made your thing
You made that pact

To keep this way
Or simply die
You went away
But I can’t cry

I saw the past
I saw your face
You chose a path
That I can’t chase

You have your time
You have your place
You’re an Angel
Give me your grace

You chose him
You left me there
You went your way
You gave me despair

And now I’m here
I’m left alone
What was a heart
Is now a stone

Chasing the Dragon

My dreams rest on foil with a match underneath.
I light them on fire and breathe in relief;
it seeps in my lungs and my veins start to seethe
for just seconds. Then suddenly

I’m weightless,

floating inches above my mattress
simultaneously tasting unconsciousness and
wondrous actuality.

But in reality, I’m lost
somewhere in between the bad and the badder,
trippin’ through Wonderland ‘cept there ain’t no Mad Hatter,
no blondie named Alice, no cat to grin at her.
The moon’s shining bright but I got no ladder
and being glued to this earth just makes me sadder
when I’m tryin’ to thieve haloes
from the night.

...that **** ain't right.

I kinda want to wander up yonder
‘cause I’m fonder of the sky and
I like to get high all the time,

but my mind won’t let go of the memories
I don’t quite wish to remember, like
skylark tunes and Mylar balloons,
late night headaches and early morning cartoons,
soaking in the heat of late summer afternoons
while praying I’d never be grounded.

(I kinda want to wander…)

They make me feel brand new,

unbroken,

like I never started smoking my sanity.
It’s an unnerving feeling that paints me in vanity blues,
cleaves me in two, then melts my heart into puddles of bruised
infatuation.

(…I’m fonder of the sky…)

I should quit this and
spit out my discontent,
but the bitter kiss of my pent-up anger
angles the match and lights all my dreams on fire.

(…I like to get high all the time.)

Written in blood

"Where can all the hearts go
when love leaves them high and dry?
I have attempted to cut free the pain
and all that I have received
is more yet again.
In this I differ to my lost love,
she moved on
with another to hold her,
I stayed here alone
too afraid to follow
her example
in case the truth was harder to swallow
and the bitternes of the pill
that you only taste
at the final rattle
of a once full bottle,
showed my strength of character
as the only thing left wanting...
me."

The love may have been true
but so too was the end,
so either stand up for yourself
or let reality bend,
with distortive cocktails
of regret and pithy self hate
and the bemoaning to all
that you have decided your fate,
and the drops that you spill
from a fresh opened wound,
makes all that angst you 'must' cling to
somehow a more effective appeal
then the search for closure
and the return of your belief;
Why not find a better path to victory
than just admit self defeat?

Scarlet Letter to No One

There's a hush in the bedroom. The bed lies in ruins.
Sheets litter that once nice floor.
Whispers touch the walls like love from a ghost.
There's only one thing missing.

At night the lights go dim. People tend to shiver.
Some of them cry.
In the morning, people wake. Some feel.
Others, others just wish they could.

When they stand up their covers hit the ground.
Most times, you see who they are.
They stand bare, letting their eyes adjust.
Morning makes the most of them.

There are times when their eyes never close.
Maybe they're afraid of the dark,
I'm more afraid of morning.
Every day starts with a wish. Some end in dreams.

I've been watching as the world turns.
Maybe if it turned faster
I could turn away from you.
I know I've written you this poem before.

Clothes stack themselves to Heaven,
But lately they've missed the point.
They're climbing into space
And all the spaces nothing occupies.

If this whole poem were a metaphor, who'd know?
It's not, but the thought counts just as much.
There's something nice in honesty.
Honestly, I miss you. That'd sound better in a song.

I wonder if anyone else stays up at night
Just waiting to hear the door.
Hoping someone that they once held close
Would come wading through the clothes?

We all have dirty laundry and skeletons in the closet.
When I feel brave, I lay mine down as words,
Writing my scarlet letter to no one
In hopes that someone reads.

If you're reading this then I hope you know I'm sorry.
My room is still a mess, so am I.
Don't worry, dear, this all adds up the same.
It's just another poem on another night
When I'm wishing I could dream.

I Write To Push Away The Tears.

I write to push away the tears;
Or rather cry them onto the paper.
I sing to remind me;
Of what the song truly means.
I dance to numb the pain;
And to help void my reaction.
I cry to remind myself I care;
And because the pain is too much to keep inside.
I walk to be with nature;
And to imagine im not alone.
I slice to release the pain;
It builds up to where I cannot take it.
I listen to sad songs;
Because I do not feel I want to be cheery.
I write to push away the tears;
I repeat to deepen the meaning.

Shattered Heart

You tossed me like a ragdoll
Treated me like trash
You said you always loved me
But now our love live's clash
I thought you were my soulmate
We were perfect for each other
But then you left me in the dark
And winded up with another
I can't believe you cheated
I thought our love was true
But now you're showing your real colors
I should have taken a clue
Well I guess this is the end
For us to split apart
You wind up with another girl
And I'm left with a shattered heart

Tears Behind My Eyes

When you look into my eyes they may seem to be empty,
My eyes are full of tears, although you don't see any.

So many times my heart has been filled with pain,
And deep behind my eyes are pockets of tears that are ready to fall like rain.

I know at times I may appear to be tough,
but sometimes to bear the pain and heartache can be too much.

Sometimes I try and hide the tears that I cried just last night,
Tears that soaked my pillow wet long past mornings first light.

I know how it feels to be pushed away by someone you love,
I'm not afraid to admit my tears because I know that there's a far greater love, one that comes from above.

Happiness too will be mine, so until then I'll keep my my head up and eyes towards the skies,
And never allowing anyone to see the tears hidden behind my eyes.

Knuckles

pale face crumbles as it hits your shoulder,
a chalky landslide of porcelain features
smash with the force of breaking bones
into my fragile heart.

Spider kissing your neck sneers
as blind as the rest, your blue eyes,
and the dagger in your throat sticks
like the words choked in my own.

Hold fast.
Herons fly straight in the evening sky,
never looking back to witness
the inevitable death of the sun.

And when the moon moths appear,
your only down fall will be
that your heart's not yet inked in my
woodland.

The Journey..

This path,
Wasn't meant to be touched... The bitterness placed its hands upon it..
And this place we left behind contains a recollection of the deep explorations and admirations,
Never once I would of thought I'd have...
I still feel the heat of the burning candle between you and I..
Do you still feel it? That heat.. I call sweet sorrow..

The burning flame..
I truly wish to never be blown away,
A soothing touch will put away the misery..
Sorrow may be eternal,
Especially if true feelings aren't exposed...

Maybe

I just can’t let you go
I just want to let you know
That every night I think about you
Thinking about how our dreams never came true

I thought we meant to be
But I was just too blind to see
All the mistakes that made me
I’ve been making them, I was just too weak

Down on my knees once more
Never would I do this before
It’s supposed to be, me holding a ring
In a silver box, hoping love is what it’ll bring

But you’re gone, never to come back
Never to smile again, my faith you lacked
I just didn’t deserve you baby
And I could have stopped it, maybe

If only I tried harder, to be a better man
Instead I acted like a freak, taking every heart I can
Now I cry, doesn’t matter if I learned my mistake
Because it won’t bring you back, it won’t for heart’s sake

Drowning, in the rain, in our special place
Always came home for you, now I live in empty space
No “hello I missed you, I really love you”
I can never say it, say those three words without you

I see the ring in that silver box, it’s still here
Looking at me, saying how it should be on you and not there
How I could be saying your name all the time
With our children we always had in our minds

But you’re gone, never to come back
Never to smile again, my faith you lacked
I just didn’t deserve you baby
And I could have stopped it, maybe

If I could go back in time, no it won’t happen
Fate won’t give me that chance again
I try to call you more than once a time
But then you treat it like I committed a crime

Sitting here in my lonely chair
Under the rain still, thinking how life is still unfair
Not going into a home without you
Because it’s never home without you, it’s true

Even when I see you once more
You’re never going to love me like before
I screwed up what could be perfect
I lost you and I deserved it

But you’re gone, never to come back
Never to smile again, my faith you lacked
I just didn’t deserve you baby
And I could have stopped it, maybe

The Daily Routine

wake up in the morning.
and everything is ok for a moment,
then i realize, there will be no
good morning kiss, no morning
greeting at all from you, my love.
so i cry myself out of bed, and
slowly wipe away my tears
while getting ready for the day.
and as the day progresses,
i am distracted by the classes,
by the people i see and places i have to go.
so to everyone out there, they dont even
know that i had a rough morning.
the day goes by like normal. only
thing that is really different is
the lack of you in it. and when
i lay down at night, ready for sleep.
i feel that lack the most, and it pulls
at my heart, keeping me awake till
i cant possibly stay awake any longer.
falling asleep on my freshly tear
stained pillow. just to wake up
the next morning, and do it all again.
over and over and over. my life
seems to be on repeat, unable
to move forward without you.